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 Hi everyone. Sorry I haven't updated this in a while. Keeping people posted and up to date on my life in the form of writing is a bit unnatural for me... But I'm learning. Cru has kept me very busy and occupied. I love my job. It does have its challenges though. Like I've mentioned before, I only am getting paid part time. The cru team here has been through a lot of changes this semester. We lost Phil and Liz washburn in June, they moved to Ohio. Then of course, the Pelton family has been in Albuquerque because of all the medical conditions thier son Jude had and then Jude just recently passed away. So the Cru team basically just had two senior staff. Vince and Holly Hoppe. Nick, Sarah, and myself are the new cru interns. So this semester we lost 4 senior staff members and gained 3 part time interns. And Vince and Holly had a new baby. :) thats very exciting, but as you can tell through all this, I've been overwhelmed at trying to help out. Some weeks I've worked more than full time. I'm ok with that. The job is very awesome, but I still dont have a second part time job and I litrally am living paycheck by paycheck. So please pray that the Lord will provide more support and or a second part time job will arise. I feel like there is a million little jobs for me to do each day. Most of it is very tedius. All I want to do is serve this campus, meet with students, and teach them on spiritual things and talk about Christ to those who dont know him.... But support raising, paying bills, budgetting, and simply surviving one paycheck at a time, is all really stressful and distracting more than anything. I want those to all just go away... but its not. I know the Lord has me here for a reason. Though its very uncomfortable, its very good. Christ is leading me through this. I finally graduated and yet here I am, poorer than Ive ever been before... as far as wealth is concerned. My need for Christ is greater. My thirst for his guidence and wisdom is greater than its ever been.... If having money means loosing devotion toward Christ, than I dont want money.

So, this semester, two people have accepted Christ as thier savior through cru. :) very awesome. I've had a lot of good spiritual discussions as well. There is one student and friend that is very close to accepting Christ as thier savior. He has come to me to find out who Christ is... it very amazing to see a life transform right in front of you. To see Christ moving in someones heart directly through you is very awe inspiring. Its very exciting to see Christ work... And all us new interns are a bit stressed at times. We all have training thats crammed in a part time schedule.... Now though all this seems crazy. Its been really neat to see the Lord working through it all. Christ has been moving in great ways. The peltons baby, Jude, Though only living to be 67 days old, inpacted many many lives. Through his short little life i've seen first hand, Christ move though his story. And I'm sure he will continue to move using Judes story. And us new interns are having to step up and take on stuff a lot faster than normal because of the lack in manpower. But its helping us learn a lot and fast. :) though there is struggle, its always followed by a greater amount of growth.... I'm very excited to be on the nmsu cru team.

This is what Christ is teaching me in my life rigth now. Hes been really teaching me more about prayer.When I fail to pray, my best is all I can offer. When I do pray, its no long the best I can do, its the best God can do. How arrogant can I be to think that doing my best is good enough. I want to be the man Christ wants me to be. I want to rely on the paower of God and not the power of me. So I've been really trying to be more conciouse of prayer... Prayer has always been very present in my life... but recently I haven't been praying as much and have been working harder... I want the exact oposite to happen. I want to stop trying to fix the world myself but allow God to fix the world through me. I need to stop trying so hard. Who am I compared to God... thats right, nothin. But with God, there is nothing I cant do.